why?

i wish for a life,

a life of dreams,

dreams without conflict,

full with people,

whom i need and care,

that's all i wish for,

isit so much to ask?

nothing much was achieved yesterday... went to bugis, played pool, eat at macdonalds, coffee at starbucks, walked around, waited for the bus, talk crap on the bus, made funny faces, did idiotic things....

saw a bunch of kids from northlight school.. i don't know whether its a secondary sch or primary sch... they were like kids.. short and young faces... when they got on the bus, freaking noisy lar.. even though my MP3 was at full blast, can still hear them lar... can you imagine? wats more, it was a group of couples... their younger than me sial... wats the world coming to? why can't i have the things people have? happiness and a sense of belonging... arrived at kembangan.. played for a while... win some, lose some.

here i am, writing this post, eating french toast for breakfast, coffee by my side talking bout my pathetic life which can be better but to no avail... sometimes i think that people find me insignificant, an unuseful factor in their lifes.. they chose to ignore me until the time is ripe for them to use me... what a lonely life i lead... stuck with the same old routine.. with nothing to look forward to but my failures to keep me company.. failures in all aspects.. many in particular... all my attempts are nothing but utter failures.. i fear that my life is going to be more worst than it is... with results around the corner.. damn damn damn.... someone or something please please please give me a sign that everything is goin to be alright, that my life is going to be in a better position... show me, teach me, help me...

Far away, i feel ur beating heart

all alone, beneath the crystal stars

starring into space,

what a lonely face,

i try to find my place with you,

larger than the moon my love for you

worlds collide

coz heaven pulls us through

the secret of your world,

is written in the stars

carrying ur heart in mine