wWooowowww!!! marcus!! dude!!! your songs rock big time!! AVIAN SIXTY FOUR!!! omg! it seriously didnt sound like you la but who the hell cares!! the songs were off the hook!!! i know i know im doing this without you knowing but I MUST PROMOTE YOU GUYS!! eh eh visit www.myspace.com/aviansixtyfour!! damm excellent!!!

this is them!! according to order from the left; marcus, born, izz, shark, bob and val! nvr met this guys b4 but marc is the one i know!! Woowow! marc! if you're reading this, DUDE congrats man! your demo sounds great!! MORE more more more!!! dont stop and give more!! ahhhhhh!!!

to anyone who is reading this!! to visit their myspace and listen to their songs!!! man oh man they'll knock your socks off!!!

the 5 of us... funny huh? new place but same old faces.. ahaass.. this was yesterday.. supposedly to go out with other but kena cancelled so hanged out in RP instead.. not bad.. quite fun actually... a lot of new things to see... but, kinda disappointed about yesterday la... was kinda excited about yesterday's outing then pbbfftt.... i understand why but..... what's done is done.. cant do anything about it.. family comes first i suppose... aahhassss.... i'm being kinda pathetic, so forgive me... slack slack slack.... got hang over.. abit la.. not from drinkin or anything, jus tired and from bad dreams... ahaha NOT wet dreams... ahahassss

dont i look funny? new poly, new look! ahahs doesnt this picture remind you of someone? muahahahaa! 1st week of poly life was 'A' OK! suprisingly presenting your work at the end of the day can be quite exciting. alot of new friends to present with! ahahahss my modules for the 1st 6 months are all basics that is required for the rest of my poly education! my lecturers/facilitators hav funny names seh.. peng peng, mok mok and alot more!! muahaha i look myself in this picture also makes me laugh!! ahahahs!!

W26D! 25people. 5 teams of 5! everyday change teams to better accomplish or assignment! my modules are basic sciences, computing and mathematical methods, cognitive processes and probelm solving, communication practice and lastly enterprise skills... sounds boring but actually isnt! ahahhas

yeahhh! heres my team for fridays!!

more fun to come i hope!! muahahaha so far all gerek sia!! nobody's head stick in their jubohs!!

still waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting till no one knows when

dammit la... cant even joke around anymore... everyone like soo freaking sensitive la.... its either that or im too naive or gullible.... this is bullshit la.... joking around is my way of life la... aint fun anymore... everything i say seem to piss her off la... im going like what the hell la.... stick your heads in your juboh if dun want to listen la.. see if i give a damn.. do you want me to be a heartlesss bastard? if so then just tell me in my face la.. trust me when i say i can be as cruel as the next person... im freaking tired just travelling up and dwn singapore la dumbasses and still i have to go through this shit la... people just dont know how lucky they are to have me the way i am... rack your brains next time!! think before you say anything.. i like to joke around SO dun take everything sooo seriously la... whats life if there's no fun and laughter at all... if dun want these things then why not go back into time and let hitler win the war then everyone will be happy!!

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She said this and i quote "In fact!! I'm really happy!! Know why?? Because, initially, when we met up at Republic Poly(RP) I felt really tensed. So then, as we go on, I started to relax, and the reason is, because.....finally!!!! I know that *sings* I'm so over it….yessss!!!! woohoo!! It also got me thinking, why did I even went through it. it's not that he's bad or anything, he's really nice. But it's something words can't explain. "

ahh.. actually im happy for her. she has and can moved on... its kinda my fault so i cant anything to it... ahhhhh im such a fool to let her go... my heart macam kena chopped into pieces like that.... yesterday mcm awkward like that... its like i cant talk to her normaly without feeling weird or something like that.... sucks huh? maybe as time moves on, we will change and be more comfortable around each other....

im such a fool... dont you think so?

SEG!! SAH!!!

i bet when you see this, your mind would instantly think of the tv series BUT NOOOOO!!! its actually the theme for RP's orientation program! excellent!! its actually 3 days but only went for the 1st and 3rd day.. 2nd day ponteng!!! ahahas the 1st day met my classmates for the 1st six months of my poly life which will change after that period of time... all of us from diferent courses mixed together to form a class of 25... in each class there's 5 teams of 5... and guess what? im bloody team leader.... everyone like sooo shy shy soo i volunteer la... our facilitator (lecturer) kinda brief us on what to expect this semester... yeahh then we did a mock presentation which was awesome!! ahhahahhhhhhaass!!! 2nd day ponteng coz lazy to wake up soo early... have to wake up at 6 and be out of the house before 7.. understand ler.. damn tiring... everyday take the same bus oso siannn... yeahhh 3rd day alot of running around the poly campus taking part in somekind of scavenger hunt... ok la.. everyone from the different SCHS were running in the same direction la... people kept on bumping against each other.. Ewwww... sweaty people bunched up together... ahhhhhhh!!! SEG! SAHH!! SEG! SAHH!!! S.E.G! SAH SAH SAH!!! SEG stands for school of engineering!! its kinda our cheer... me and jiarong was like huh?? damn demoralizing ler... its like we're back in secondary sch yeahhh!! GROUP 23!!! or SEG 23!! that was our team!! man oh man.. there's this guy from china.. no one understand what crap he was talking about coz his accent was soo damn thick then kena bully by this guy named raj.. BLOODY INDIAN BULLYING CHINA BOY!! what a cliche!! the 2 most criticise country in the world battling against each other!! ahahasss!! the food given was like crappppp.... the rice taste like spoil oredi sia yeah!! then we had somekind of mascot making program.. everyone from each sch had to make a mascot!! SEG was a bloody snake WHICH i had to carry up stage to show it to everyone in RP.... at least i wasnt the only one arhh.. that was the only consolation i got!! the finale was dammm POWER!! its like bands, rappers, hiphop dancers and any other entertainment group found in RP was there to give us freshman a peek in thier lives!!! wah LAU!!! damn exciting lar!! the downside was that it was held at the football pitch WHICh was soaking wet and full of mud.... my shoes are ruined =( ahhhhhh then finish around 10pm like that!! LOL
soo thats my orientation for RP... lalalaaaaaa!!! it seems all good but that remains to be seen!!! ahahas

not bad not bad... did meet new and known people! suprisingly someone i thought i'll nvr see again in my life! ahahas cuckcoo bird lar!! bastards bitches and bullocks! 3 words to describe what im feeling now... oh my goodness... cant compete with a memory... whats in the past stays in the past... i wonder whats wrong with me... cant figure it out... got a freaking headache now.. damn whoooshh and vrrroooommm going inside my mind... damnn fuuuyoohhh!!! nose bleed!! =p ppbbbffftttt!!!! im screwed big time... dammnn aint fun when the effort you put in goes unnoticed.. like crap huh? the feeling is just isnt right... i had what i wanted and i threw it all away... its damn wronngggg!!! i feel like a damn fool now... too late to do anything now... cant change it... when you cant beat them, join them...

tommorrow's a new day! a new beginning perhaps! oreintation here i come! the day is finally here when i can properly call myself a POLY STUDENT!! new and old friends to meet... ahh

to whoever who is reading this.. ask yourself this question... are you in love with love or are you in love with the person you're in love with? i still dunno the answer to that question.. maybe soon maybe never...

BOREDOM!!! its uber killing me!! haven been this bored since i dont know when.... my gosh what a fool i have been and still being the fool... been playin idiotic games with poker cards.. solitaire lar and 24... hahahs see how pathetic i can be when i'm stuck at home... i need something or someone!! since its oredi 4th of april, today's plan oso kena cancel... i know i know... you cant help it... damn, wadd the hell am i gonna do ltr? just now soo bored till i cleaned up my room WHICH i dont normally do until the next hari raya or some other special occasion... class notes were like everywhere... 6 years worth of notes = 4 huge plastics bags.. damn heavy... didnt eat much too... 2 reasons.. i lost my appetite and bcoz the food was too salty.. smoking's bad but eating salty food is worse ler.. rather die to smoking than to salty food... come to think of it, both is just as bad as each other... while cleaning my room, found couple of memorable items... damn.. its making me wish to go back in time to exprience it all over again... it would be damn excellent!! then i can jaga my intake!! ahhaahaaha thats wishful thinking but once in a while wishes come true.... ahahah oh yah, yesterday met up with marcus, fah, hakim, adi, mdnoh and his girl, and huda... they went jamming then i met up with them... wanted marcus to transfer some songs and flicks to my laptop... yah... then went to fah's place to lepak... it was near damai soo it was like old times... then watch american pie- the naked mile... GUYS and GALS watch it! seriously its good! then played PS and smoked(me and fah) yeahhh... thats it.. from exciting to damn boring.... haizz

(a fool is what i am and a fool i will still be.. what is done; is done... cant do crap.. just need to hope and wish that things would just go my way for once in this lifetime... everything has fall to pieces once too many times.... and i've paid the price for my stupidity)

jus passing it along!!

yeah... i was on jannah's list.. sooo, since got nothing better to do.. i'll do it...

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME
-trying to get people to call me khairul again and not arifin
-my life is full of random happennings
-my mind's in a complete mess/confused
-i like people to call me cute/bubbly/cuddly instead of fat
-laptop rocks!
-disgusted by lame people
-POLY here i come!

7 THINGS IM AFRAID OF
-ALLAH
-Death/apocolypse
-Love
-rejection
-BABI
-life without fun
-enemies

7 RANDOM SONGS
-+44(155)
-hot hot heat(middle of nowhere)
-the red jumpsuit apparatus(face down)
-the red jumpsuit apparatus(false pretense)
-incubus(anna molly)
-leigh nash(ocean size love)
-the afters(beautiful love)

7 THINGS I LOVE
-family and friends
-punggol mee goreng
-watching anyting and everything
-grey's anatomy rocks!
-laptop
-hanging out or lepaking wih friends
-her/s

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST
-wad the f***
-wad the hell
-nonsense lar....
-shoot!
-agrhhh dammit!!
-NoooOOoooooo!!
-YATTA!!

7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS
-HAQ
-TASHA
-SHIDAH
-MARCUS
-MIMI
-JAMES
-TO THOSE WHO'S READING THIS

try it, enjoy it, kick the hell out of it.....

FUJITSU!!! GO GO GO

yeahh!!! YATTA!! got my laptop!! cost quite a bundle but damn worth it lor!! wah lau... sori becoz soo long nvr post.... dad delayed payment for the internet.... sooo was not connected for quite sometime.... nothing much happened... went for enrollment on wednesday.... damn long bus ride lar.... have o get used to it coz its gonna be my mode of transportation for the next 3 years at RP!! yeahh... damn funny lar... on that day nvr buy the laptop... then 2 days ltr, went back to RP to buy it, then they say out of stock.... wah lau... damn waste of time... THEN in the afternoon, they call me to say that the stock is oredi here.... bullocks man... then this morning WENT BACK TO RP with weijie to collect the LAPTOP.... then can pay full by nets becuase of the 2k limit or something like that... had to go to a atm to WITHDRAW some cash then paid through both nets and cash.... im like dammit lar.. nvr say earlier... going back and forth from the east to the north..... dammit... $20 worth of ezlink cash went down the drain.... not literally... but, you get wat i mean... ahahahs wah lau.... after that, went roaming around for games for our laptops!!yeahhh like a bunch of nerds!!!

[i dunno whats wrong with me lar... thought i can get over it.. but unfortunately, its soo goddamn hard... been trying... tried with you... cant clear my mind properly... dammit.. im sorry.. seriously... im messed up both in mind and body... (body im not soo sure....) yeahh.. my goodness..]